I'm also known as Hanariko, and this page is a proper introduction I guess.
It's all new to me, and I'm just here to have fun! Also creating these pages helps me not to forget who am I and what I used to love or still love. I'm the kind of person who usually escapes reality through daydreaming, games, and books. You could say that creating this site is just another way for me to distract myself (im so hyperfixed i forgot about all my problems).
I'm 25, and I struggle with a lingering melancholy and a complete emptiness in my chest that I constantly try to fill with not-so-healthy habits. Also i love all kind of stuff, i guess it's pretty much obvious. And do i really need to keep going? I think all this web pages can introduce me better than my words lol
✧ few more things about me ✧
✧ What is Matrix of Destiny? ✧
It's a self-discovery system based on numerology and the 22 Major Arcana of Tarot. It maps out your soul's energy, core talents, comfort zone, and life lessons using your birth date! In the Matrix of Destiny, each Arcana can manifest in both positive and negative ways. Positive manifestation — the Arcana's energy expressed through its strengths and constructive qualities. Negative manifestation — the same energy expressed through its challenges, fears, or destructive patterns. How Arcana will manifest depends on you!
The Emperor represents leadership, structure, and taking control of my life. It's about building inner strength, setting firm boundaries, and creating a stable world for myself. Though, to be honest, I don't really see these qualities in myself. I'm the complete opposite: afraid of responsibility and emotionally detached. So, I guess my Emperor definitely manifests in a negative way.
The Lovers' energy is all about making choices from the heart, seeking beauty, and forming deep connections. I feel like, in my case, it's a mix of both manifestations. I value meaningful connections, but I'm also obsessed with beauty and can be quite delusional.
